Today is a really difficult day.Not only have I been feeling crummy (sickness wise) but I remembered that today a year ago was the last time a certain person was friends with me. After May 15, 2011, any act of kindness was a big joke; just enough kindness to keep me quiet until we graduated. I knew he was faking. Honesty is #1, y'all.
I guess I miss the person he use to be. That's what makes me sad. I'm not sad about what happened. If they hadn't I wouldn't be the person I am now, but I wish things would have been handled better. Like actually sitting down and talking to me about what's wrong rather than ignoring me. I'm sad that I lost the best person I knew... Even if it was years before this.
But I keep telling myself that I'm better off.
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
Sunday, May 13, 2012
The Ruby Slippers Project: Painting the Shoes Red
Ok, well I painted my shoes red!
I decided that instead of glueing the sequins straight on the shoes, I'm going to make an overlay (like the originals) and sew the sequins on. After painting them, the texture isn't what I wanted, so I think the overlay is the best option! Lots of work! But it'll be worth it.
I thought I'd show you this cool blue print that shows how the shoe is constructed!
I decided that instead of glueing the sequins straight on the shoes, I'm going to make an overlay (like the originals) and sew the sequins on. After painting them, the texture isn't what I wanted, so I think the overlay is the best option! Lots of work! But it'll be worth it.
I thought I'd show you this cool blue print that shows how the shoe is constructed!
Project Ruby Slippers:The Shoes
For the last couple of weeks I have been wanting to make some replica ruby slippers. Ya know... Some really legit ones. Like these....
So, after quite a bit of research, I found what kind of shoes I needed. 2-2.5 inch high heel with a rather thick heel (according to today's standards), rounded pointy toe... And the front part had to be high enough that I didn't have toe cleavage.
I originally found some shoes online that would work, but they were a little more expensive than I wanted. Well today at church, I saw one of the sisters had these shoes on and I realized that I had them.... Whats even better is that I realized that they were PRETTY DARN CLOSE to the ones I was looking at online! They have a bow that I'll take off and the heel is about 3.5 inches.... But it's close enough for me! Plus they weren't worn out at all because I only wore them once!
Here are the beauties!
Time to get started!
So, after quite a bit of research, I found what kind of shoes I needed. 2-2.5 inch high heel with a rather thick heel (according to today's standards), rounded pointy toe... And the front part had to be high enough that I didn't have toe cleavage.
I originally found some shoes online that would work, but they were a little more expensive than I wanted. Well today at church, I saw one of the sisters had these shoes on and I realized that I had them.... Whats even better is that I realized that they were PRETTY DARN CLOSE to the ones I was looking at online! They have a bow that I'll take off and the heel is about 3.5 inches.... But it's close enough for me! Plus they weren't worn out at all because I only wore them once!
Here are the beauties!
Time to get started!
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
:(
I know that everyone says to not live life with regrets...
But I'm feeling regretful. I hate how so many of my friendships ended...
I guess I'm just feeling alone and wondering if I had done something different in the past.... Things would be different now.
Don't you hate that feeling....
Well I'm gonna watch new girl now.
But I'm feeling regretful. I hate how so many of my friendships ended...
I guess I'm just feeling alone and wondering if I had done something different in the past.... Things would be different now.
Don't you hate that feeling....
Well I'm gonna watch new girl now.
Thursday, April 12, 2012
Wrecking this journal!
Have you guys ever seen this book? It is "Wreck This Journal" by Keri Smith.
Here are the instructions... Pretty easy right?
Ok, here is MY page 1. Ya ya kinda boring. I just had a pen ok!
Page 2. Pretty boring.... Again. But then I had a thought.... MARKERS!
Page 3. Writing my name in white, writing my name illegibly, righting my name in tiny letters, etc.
Page 4. Fill this page with circles! I did polka dots. Close enough!
Page 5 is "make a sudden, destructive, unpredictable movement with the journal. I randomly tried to tear the book in half. It didn't work!
Page 6. Doodle over top of this page. So I did. If you read the words that are underneath.... About half way through it tells you to stop reading. So I did.
Page 7. Tear strips. Rip it up! Therefore it was ripped!
This book is going to be really fun. As I was flipping through there were things like "sleep with your journal" "shower with your journal"
Sorry about my messy hair!
Sunday, March 25, 2012
Life
Dear Friends,
Things haven't been very good lately....
My dear sweet Lulu Bell died on March 15th 2012. She was almost 14 years old. She had a second stroke and was paralyzed. We had to put her down.
In a way, I'm glad. She was sad. She didn't like having things wrong with her and didn't know how to adapt. She was embarrassed. Now, she is in heaven with her sister. She's no longer in pain and is happier than I can ever know. She even gets to play with Jesus now. How lucky is she? She gets to sit on Jesus' lap.
On the other hand... I'm very heartbroken. She was easily one of my best friends. She was born when I was 5, almost 6 and I hardly remember a time without her. I told her my secrets, I really did. I'd be home alone and she would come sit with me and I'd talk to her. I'd tell her what I've done, how sad I am, how I wish to change things. I knew she understood. And she loved me anyway. She was always happy to see me.... Lately it's been hard without her here. It's quite and there is an obvious void without her here....
Because of this whole in our hearts and home..... We are welcoming a new friend into our family. Dorothy Louise, or Dot.
Dot is a 5 month old red shih tzu. She is a whopping 3.8 pounds and will only grow to be 5-6lbs. She recently had surgery to fix a double hernia and will join us shortly. She is so shy and sweet and I can tell she is going to have a rambunctious streak in her.
We are so excited to have her. She gives us hope and fills a part of us that we had lost. We miss Lulu dearly... We will never forget her. But we are excited to have our new friend, Dot. I'll see Lulu again someday.
Things haven't been very good lately....
My dear sweet Lulu Bell died on March 15th 2012. She was almost 14 years old. She had a second stroke and was paralyzed. We had to put her down.
In a way, I'm glad. She was sad. She didn't like having things wrong with her and didn't know how to adapt. She was embarrassed. Now, she is in heaven with her sister. She's no longer in pain and is happier than I can ever know. She even gets to play with Jesus now. How lucky is she? She gets to sit on Jesus' lap.
On the other hand... I'm very heartbroken. She was easily one of my best friends. She was born when I was 5, almost 6 and I hardly remember a time without her. I told her my secrets, I really did. I'd be home alone and she would come sit with me and I'd talk to her. I'd tell her what I've done, how sad I am, how I wish to change things. I knew she understood. And she loved me anyway. She was always happy to see me.... Lately it's been hard without her here. It's quite and there is an obvious void without her here....
Because of this whole in our hearts and home..... We are welcoming a new friend into our family. Dorothy Louise, or Dot.
Dot is a 5 month old red shih tzu. She is a whopping 3.8 pounds and will only grow to be 5-6lbs. She recently had surgery to fix a double hernia and will join us shortly. She is so shy and sweet and I can tell she is going to have a rambunctious streak in her.
We are so excited to have her. She gives us hope and fills a part of us that we had lost. We miss Lulu dearly... We will never forget her. But we are excited to have our new friend, Dot. I'll see Lulu again someday.
Friday, February 17, 2012
Ok friends,
How goes it?
Well. There have been a large amount of changes in my life over the last couple of weeks.
#1 I have started an eating program called Take Shape For Life. We eat 5 replacement meals called Medifast meals and we eat one lean and green meal a day. I've been on it for 20 days and have lost 14 pounds. BE AMAZED! It's pretty awesome I must say.
#2 I have decided that I am no longer going to attended Weber State and will start the Managing Bookkeeping program at the DATC. That way I get training in the accounting field without a 6 year (masters) degree. I can work with CPA's and find out what they really do and THEN go back to school to get my masters if I decided that it is alright for me. Honestly, I feel like I am wasting my time at Weber. I don't go to class because my teachers dont take roll and all my work is online. I'm sick of doing general education...after all that's what I have been doing for the last 14 years of my life... Not to mention how expensive it is. I can do my entire 16 month program at the DATC for one semester's tuition at Weber. Remember how I took Phlebotomy at the DATC? Well, I really enjoyed my experience there. My teacher knew my name, called me on the phone if I needed help and actually worked as a phlebotomist (aka not a professor). It was hands on a real world. And that's what I need to not get bored with learning.
#3 My anxiety and insomnia have run rampant. I don't know if it's because of the major changes I have made in my life or what... But I am not a particularly calm individual as of late.
#4 I have become journalling like a maniac. I currently have around 6 journals. Ya crazy, I know. I think I've begun doing so as a way to replace my addiction to food ( because it very much was/is an addiction) and as a way to release my thoughts and anxiety.
I gotta tell you that I'm so sad that I haven't made any friends in college. The thought that I would is what got me though my last few months of high school. And to not have met any disappoints me. I thought I'd have an opportunity to be more social. But I guess that only really applies to people who live on campus... If anything I feel more alone than ever. I crave a connection with someone. Maybe I jinxed myself.
How goes it?
Well. There have been a large amount of changes in my life over the last couple of weeks.
#1 I have started an eating program called Take Shape For Life. We eat 5 replacement meals called Medifast meals and we eat one lean and green meal a day. I've been on it for 20 days and have lost 14 pounds. BE AMAZED! It's pretty awesome I must say.
#2 I have decided that I am no longer going to attended Weber State and will start the Managing Bookkeeping program at the DATC. That way I get training in the accounting field without a 6 year (masters) degree. I can work with CPA's and find out what they really do and THEN go back to school to get my masters if I decided that it is alright for me. Honestly, I feel like I am wasting my time at Weber. I don't go to class because my teachers dont take roll and all my work is online. I'm sick of doing general education...after all that's what I have been doing for the last 14 years of my life... Not to mention how expensive it is. I can do my entire 16 month program at the DATC for one semester's tuition at Weber. Remember how I took Phlebotomy at the DATC? Well, I really enjoyed my experience there. My teacher knew my name, called me on the phone if I needed help and actually worked as a phlebotomist (aka not a professor). It was hands on a real world. And that's what I need to not get bored with learning.
#3 My anxiety and insomnia have run rampant. I don't know if it's because of the major changes I have made in my life or what... But I am not a particularly calm individual as of late.
#4 I have become journalling like a maniac. I currently have around 6 journals. Ya crazy, I know. I think I've begun doing so as a way to replace my addiction to food ( because it very much was/is an addiction) and as a way to release my thoughts and anxiety.
I gotta tell you that I'm so sad that I haven't made any friends in college. The thought that I would is what got me though my last few months of high school. And to not have met any disappoints me. I thought I'd have an opportunity to be more social. But I guess that only really applies to people who live on campus... If anything I feel more alone than ever. I crave a connection with someone. Maybe I jinxed myself.
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