Today, an 18 year old newlywed high school drop out I know posted on FACEBOOK that she didn't want her baby. This breaks my heart. What a precious spirit this little baby is and his or her mom says something like that in a public setting.
I don't know if it's because I center my life around having a family one day, but to say that you don't want your child is definitely one of the worse things you can do...
I hope and pray that Heavenly Father has blessed this child with strength and wisdom...
Poor baby. I just feel so heart broken over this.
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Thursday, February 14, 2013
Saturday, February 9, 2013
More than Cleaning
My dear friends,
Yesterday I was "officially" diagnosed with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. Ya... OCD. No I don't wash my hands 40 times a day and I don't clean like the world will end if I don't. I do obsessively worry that I will hit someone with my car. I get major anxiety over things that pop into my head that disturb me, even though I know their ridiculous. My compulsions are minimal.... Finder tapping, checking things like the doors or the stove nobs when I bump them.
I've know for a very long time that something was wrong but I didn't know exactly what until I watched a season of the tv show "obsessed" and found some striking similarities between me and the people featured on the show. I started researching OCD and knew that's what was up with me.
I was terrified to actually go see a doctor though. I didn't want to talk to my parents about it and I didn't want to be labeled as a psycho and have the stigma attached to mental illness... Especially with so much talk about mental illness and gun control lately. But one day I was talking to my friend Celest, who also suffers from an anxiety disorder, and she said to me that it just means that there is something wrong with my brain. If something was wrong with my heart or my liver, I'd get treated for that. So, since something was wrong with my brain, I should get that treated too....
And that's what changed my mind.
I went to a doctor that Celest suggested and had my first appointment yesterday. The doctor was a lot nicer than I expected. He smiled a lot and listened (I guess that's his job). After we were done talking, sure enough, he said it was OCD.
So the doctor put me on some antidepressants. (He told me that antidepressants work better on anxiety than they do on depression. How silly is that!?) that's not really the point. The point is that I HAVE NEVER FELT SO GREAT! The one med works fast while the other one works over time. So while that one is building up in my system, the other one makes me feel better in 20 minutes after taking it. I honesty didn't think I would ever feel so great.
The doc also suggested I go to therapy... So I'll be plunging into that world pretty soon!
I can't believe that I spend so long feeling trapped in my own head. I feel like my thoughts are finally my own and I finally feel some peace and calm.
It's only been since yesterday so we will have to see how all of this goes... But I'm hoping to continue to feel as great as I do and be able to achieve all the things I couldn't because of what I worried about.
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Yesterday I was "officially" diagnosed with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. Ya... OCD. No I don't wash my hands 40 times a day and I don't clean like the world will end if I don't. I do obsessively worry that I will hit someone with my car. I get major anxiety over things that pop into my head that disturb me, even though I know their ridiculous. My compulsions are minimal.... Finder tapping, checking things like the doors or the stove nobs when I bump them.
I've know for a very long time that something was wrong but I didn't know exactly what until I watched a season of the tv show "obsessed" and found some striking similarities between me and the people featured on the show. I started researching OCD and knew that's what was up with me.
I was terrified to actually go see a doctor though. I didn't want to talk to my parents about it and I didn't want to be labeled as a psycho and have the stigma attached to mental illness... Especially with so much talk about mental illness and gun control lately. But one day I was talking to my friend Celest, who also suffers from an anxiety disorder, and she said to me that it just means that there is something wrong with my brain. If something was wrong with my heart or my liver, I'd get treated for that. So, since something was wrong with my brain, I should get that treated too....
And that's what changed my mind.
I went to a doctor that Celest suggested and had my first appointment yesterday. The doctor was a lot nicer than I expected. He smiled a lot and listened (I guess that's his job). After we were done talking, sure enough, he said it was OCD.
So the doctor put me on some antidepressants. (He told me that antidepressants work better on anxiety than they do on depression. How silly is that!?) that's not really the point. The point is that I HAVE NEVER FELT SO GREAT! The one med works fast while the other one works over time. So while that one is building up in my system, the other one makes me feel better in 20 minutes after taking it. I honesty didn't think I would ever feel so great.
The doc also suggested I go to therapy... So I'll be plunging into that world pretty soon!
I can't believe that I spend so long feeling trapped in my own head. I feel like my thoughts are finally my own and I finally feel some peace and calm.
It's only been since yesterday so we will have to see how all of this goes... But I'm hoping to continue to feel as great as I do and be able to achieve all the things I couldn't because of what I worried about.
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